Tell Me Why

Last week at my Toastmasters Club, I did a speech about staying on track while on vacation. Maybe I'll share it here, since everyone liked it. We had visitors from another club, and after the meeting one guy asked why I'm so strict with tracking. Couldn't I just eat healthy, and not worry about that? My answer at the time was that I'm afraid of gaining the weight back. There's more to it than that though. On one hand, I am afraid of gaining the weight back. On the other hand, I'm afraid that without weighing, measuring, and tracking, I won't eat enough. Although I was never diagnosed as anorexic, there was a period in my life when I didn't eat. I starved myself, trying to be thin. For a very short time, I was below a BMI of 20. I know that I wouldn't exactly go to that extreme these days, but I can guarantee that I would find myself taking smaller portions than necessary of anything that wasn't a fruit or vegetable. I'm REALLY bad at estimating proper portions. It's just a fact that I know about myself, that I have to deal with. The whole point is that I continue to weigh, measure, and track my food so that I will maintain my current body weight, within a few pounds. Maybe some day I'll feel confident enough to stop doing that, but now is not the time.